Never Alone

     I watched a series on either Prime, HBO, or Showtime.  It is about a man who worked over 20 years as a Border Patrol Officer when unexpectantly things turned for the worse.  He was trying to help a friend out and he ended up on the other side of the border and in the end he was smuggling drugs into the US so he could get or keep his family out of harms way.  During the series, the man was falling for a beautiful Mexican woman and he states something like "your people are bringing drugs into our country". And she looked at him and says "your country keeps on buying the drugs".  It is a pretty much in-your-face statement that she made.  If our country stopped buying the drugs the people who produced the drugs wouldn't have a reason to bring them to the country.  It’s basic business,  if people are not buying what is being produced or what is being sold, the business will eventually fail. 

     With drugs, it is not only a one-sided story or a single person who is doing bad.  When I first smoked weed when I was like 18 or 19, I didn’t go out looking for it myself, I wasn’t out hunting it down, someone else was smoking it and asked if I wanted to give it a “go”.  With my Mom and her drug addiction, she was never alone.  She always had someone with her or someone to introduce her to the new stuff that would make her feel better.  There is always a person who shows another person who to go to or where to go to get what that person wants to make them feel better.  "I know a guy who knows a guy" type of situation.   All of my life my Mom had a guy who knew a guy or introduced her to the guy.  I know that she didn't or wouldn't put the work in herself to get what she needed.  What she got herself into was usually because a guy took her to what she needed.  She usually can or could coax or talk a person to do something for her.   She had that way about herself.  She used words to people to either pressure or con them into doing something that would better her.  

     Even though she is very guilty of what she did, and she had the choice to do better the addiction was too strong to not make the right choice.  Her addiction was so strong that her choices led her to making unforgivable decisions. Those unforgivable or unforgettable choices were letting all of her kids go for the need and want of the drug.    

   However, when I was growing up and still to this day when I hear how bad Susie was, or that she should rot in the back of a dumpster, I wish those people saying this remind themselves that she wasn’t always alone in the decisions she made.